Tomorrow is Christmas ~ i cant believe how fast a year is coming to an end :( i miss wrps. how i wish time would just stop and we could all just stay in P6 forever. Starting secondary one is like starting over from P1... i cant imagine life without the familiar faces :( time indeed flies. ILOVEYOUMYFRIENDS.

Gonna hit bugis on monday to buy chinese new year clothes (: but well, i am scared too. because the next day i am gonna do my braces. i am making my parents spend like a bomb. sorry daddy mummy. iloveyouguys :(

Went to malacca for a period of 3 days (: awesome trip. bought loads of stuff there. pshhh score. hehe. :D

loads of stuff happened. firstly, i was posted to nanhua high school. i like it there. but my mum and dad both said appeal. wtf. well never mind, if i can get to river valley high. it would be nice too. and right now i am sneezing my ass off. wtf again. :\

Its been ages since i wrote my blog. and a lot of things happened when i didnt write it. Things took the turn for the worst and everything became back to the original. maybe i really did change. i changed in her eyes. and once i change its hard to change back. i feel bad. im sorry to her. i hurt her a lot. those tears on her face were cause by me. soo why not let her go, in that way she will never need to cry for a stupid jerk like me again. i miss those days. memories (: but well, i hope her life is good. forgetme ;;

is there still any point to cling onto that string any longer? because, i tried to cling onto it, but failed. tried again, failed again. and i dont have another chance to try again. i did everything i could, but failed. such loser. fml

OMG I MADE IT. I DID IT! I DIDNT THOUGHT THAT I COULD MADE IT INTO TOP 10! I DIDNT THOUGHT THAT I COULD GET A* FOR MY MATHS OMFG~~ this is one of the best days of my life! I really am soo happy! i really want to thank mrs chay, miss law, and miss siti sooo much~ IFEELSOOOFRIGGINGOOD~ YIPPEE~ Although i only got 8th in level but this reminds me of my SA1 of P4 :P heh, its kinda a nice number :)

well, tomorrow is it. everybody is gonna receive their psle results. i am afraid :( i am very scared. the pressure is building, this is the thing which pulls me down everytime. ugh, i hate pressure. but i realise self pressure is the killer thing. sigh, if my score is really that low, i think i should just go to woodlands ring secondary school, who cares. *shugs* i guess i could only accept everything no matter how bad it is. :P sob sob

damn me, i just did it again. awesome. score. wtf! i feel like dying right now

its been ages since i update my blog. #nowdoing, well nothing much, just chatting with ellie and ZX. went to queenstown and bought some stuff pshh. :P

EVERYTHING TURNED BACK TO NORMAL. HOW AWESOME. :D

I feel sad for ada, i pity her. LOADS

its been ages since i write my blog :P hehehe, i think from mon-fri its gonna be basketball nonstop:) hahahs.

i feel weird all of a sudden, i watched the video, looked at the pictures, and i wonder why. by now, i should have asked her, but nothing, i didnt ask a single thing. wth. ugh. my piece of puzzle.. gone.

yamakasi :) heh heh, that was soo damn friggin cool. i love that show :D:D what an awesome day~!

today, i went to the dentist. gonna put the braces on my 3rd visit. flehh, i hope the braces work:( if not gonna do surgery when i am 18!~ eeekkk :( PLSSS *PRAYS*

hmm, i am thinking... is my happiness really back? or is something still missing? hahas :B bleah...

hmm, was talking to ZX until he suddenly stop, i think i said something wrong :( did i? um, actually he is quite a nice guy, very friendly. xP but not my type(:

Yesterday Sarah talked to me, she said loads of stuff, which is just her opinions (ithink) THIS SUCKS... why must she tell me all this now? It makes me confuse, i do not know what to do right now..Ugh, my life is in a mess. :( Truthfully, despite what i have, who i hang out with right now, there is always this piece of puzzle missing. Just because of that one piece, the puzzle is not completed. And i had lost that piece of puzzle...

Going to meng's house later to watch our favourite show :D YAY!~ WHEEEE

Havent been updating my blog for ages i realised... Hehehe~! Yesterday, Ada and I went to the beach:D OhMyGosh, it was soo fun, bwahhahaha. Thanks to SL, i was drenched from head to toe. AND i mean head to toe. The water is salty, gawd. thats random(: well, we also detour to causeway point to buy a necklace and then we went to northpoint too, and bought more necklaces:D Well, im almost bankrupt, but its okay. hehehe:) SUCH AN AWESOME DAY! I LOVE ADA Muah~~

WAS SUCH A FUN DAY TODAY:D EPIC OF THE EPICS:D HEHE! 2 words: Ahhhwesome DaY(:

Going to meng's house for her birthday party today(: AND THEN at night i would go to huiting's house for her birthday party too:D Aw ! SO MUCH FUN :D:D HEHE~ going soon in 7 min:) AHAHAH BLEHH, suddenly i am obsessed with ordinary girl:) its nice, love that song, its like 一见钟情sia LOL~ my chinese suck :P HEHHE... updating details later, buhbye

AWESOME :) Basketball is soooo damn friggin fun :P:P I LOVE YOU PEEPS :D right now is sg guys vs india guys... and my heart is worried for them, they looked like they may lose or something HAHA~

OMFG :D:D YAY!~ After like 6 years of hard work, finally the major friggin exam is over muahhaha... i am soo damn happy, going out with friends to party and have fun, and yeahh, there is something i still need to make clear, flehh. nom(: anyways, fun is the only word now :D

tmr is my last exam, please god please, please help me :( I really need all the luck right now, wish me all the best flehh. suck. my. life. nvm. jys girl. :D:D

I am scared, tmr, day of death, how awesome. I can imagine how all this is gonna be when i get my results. i have already imagined the worse:)

My father called me just now, he asked if today's paper is easier... i told him yes, and he said he calculated for me already, he said if i worked harder for my science and hmt, 270 would be nothing, he said it as if its very easy... i am afraid that i would disappoint him, he said if i had any questions, i could ask him. I am scared :( Very. Although today's paper is easy, i already had like one 1 question wrong? Fick? After my efforts of maintaining full marks for booklet A? WTH :( in my heart, there is still disappointment...

My mum called and told me its okay again, and my tears fall back down again, i really felt guilty. my keyboard is filled with tears. Mummy i love you :(

I never felt sooo sad in my whole damn life, now i realised something- i am not the best and never will be. If something changes a little, my whole damn life changes too. I cant take it anymore, yesterday something happened, today something happened again, why does this happens to me? Everytime when this kind of things happens, i try my best, to find confidence again, to continue moving, but this time, i feel tired, i feel that i should just give up and not study forever. I worked sooo hard till now, is because of the smile on my parents and relatives face. Whenever, i get good results, my parents will always smile radiantly, and of course my relatives too. But, whenever i didnt, i could see the disappointment in their eyes, i know how much they want their daughter to have a bright future. but i really want to say, maybe this is my life, i cant get anything right. This year i have been under a lot of pressure- peer pressure, my family and teacher's expectations. however, most likely i will fail to reach their goal for me. now the only thing that is keeping me going is my family- upon knowing about all this, my mum came back and told me its okay and the more she says that the more i felt guilty, but i really tried my best, i study soo hard for this day, but in the end, this is what i get? Tears fall uncontrollably, in my heart, it hurts, a lot. In front of my friends, i do not dare to cry, if not i will keep hearing its okay from them too. In the end, i guess i will not be able to top the school, i think when we get back to school to get our results, i think i will be the one, sitting down emotionless, cos its impossible for me to get 260 and above lerh, i think i will be the worse person ever, even MX may surpass me i think. Sigh, HY, ZQ, wrps is counting on you... break the school record guys, break a leg!~

失败的man :( spiderman, 失败 is da words to describe me... fml, i realised something, i was always breakdown when i am under pressure, i almost gave up psle in the afternoon, i was scared then- very, but now, the feeling disappeared and i am filled with this teeny bit of confidence again, wish me luck :( Buhbye

I cried dood, i cried, i am a major failure, eekkky, seriiouslyy i am sooo damn sad right now. I put up a brave front, not wanting to cry in front of everybody, but at home, i closed the door, and just started crying non-stop... SHIT!~ I dunno if i did write elderly woman in the first para, i am scared. REALLY SCARED :( on the other hand, i was thinking, why not dont go to a good school, just go a neighbourhood school and thats it fml :( nothing can express how sad i felt now, i really need something, something.

PSLE is tmr!~ OMG :( Thats sooo fast, i am scared. what if, what if, i did not get good results? HOW? :( Sigh, nvm. i will give my best shot :D But, still:P JYS :D:D

Excitiiing day ahead!~ going our for lunch to have a break from studying, then gonna watch 命中注定我爱你at 5pm bwahhahhaha :D:D I love that friggin show... AND THEN AT NIGHT gonna go and eat dinner with my da ku ma(: YAYY!~ long time no see her lerh bleah :P

been typing like mad since i on9 :P:P talked to zee about that matter already and i feel better to share it with someone(: and also i chatted with xin lin :D:D Had fun talking to them ^^ edited a picture for them too. but editor when bonkers and soooo i cant add texts :( hmph, tired. its been such a day:) feel like staying up to watch drama serials though bwhahahhaa bye~

BlAH~~ Just came back from bbc, playing basketball with dj, marcus, chris, ada, and ada's bro(: Was afraid that i would hit chris with the ball again and his nose will bleed again :P BLEAH!~ Had fun with them nomnom(: Finished more test papers, going to grandma's house soon for dinner:D goodbye.

:3 Its 10.55 now. and i havent finish loads of stuff, been asking HY and KL how to do chinese questions and i realised that there are a lot of careless mistakes :P HEHE! ~ this always happens when i am doing test papers bleah. time passes and right now its 1 Oct already, eeeky... last children's day, happy children's day!~ Lalala... Currently talking to amanda!~ BWAHA! And i need to talk to Zee :P i need to ask her some stuff fjdvndjsnjf nvm. lets see if she is on9 later, thats all for now, buhbye~~

suckttm manxc

WHO ARE YOU!? and why r u speaking for me? why? i dun blame you, but who are you? why does it seem that i do not know a lot of things? ARH! Bad day, i guess.

I guess i expected that... although deep down it hurts, i guess i have to except reality. Sigh

OMG... i totally forgotten to update my blog :P:P Well, last saturday was mummy's birthday and we went to ang mo kio to eat crab:D YUMMY!~ I love crab BWAHHAHAHA! LoveDieCrabbie :D HEHE!~ Lalallala :B Hmm... Well, today, got back chinese results and i lose to Prof Soh BY 0.5 mark! WTH~ EEKKK :( Mummy :( Hahas... well. nvm. hmm... and my science suck, bklt A: 50/60 ]: Hmm... and i just remembered sth, my group just lost to 紫罗兰!! AHHH! HEHE! Nvm. i think we will catch up soon :) :P:P And we also wrote notes just now during art lesson... And... Err... Nvm. Dun say lerh. Well, later going tuition and before that, gonna meet ah meng to pick up ada :P:P CHEERS ~~ DUN THINK ABT THE BAD EEEKY STUFF :P:P bleah.

Today was quite bad :P:P firstly, just got back maths results, and i realised that my OAS i shade wrongly like about 6 questions! AHHH! but in my booklet A, i got everything right... This is sooo maddening... i know how to do, i did it correctly, but shade wrongly, nvm. Hahas... whats over is over. no use crying over spilt milk. Hmmm.. then the chinese mock test was quite okay.. lets hope that i will get good grades for that. tmr is science!! EEEKKY! i havent finish revising bleah

Mid-Autumn Festival!~ The moon is soo round, so bright... My mum brought back durian mooncakes again!~ Yay :D LoveDieDurianMooncakes :D Muahahaha&^^ My grandma also bought my favourite yueliangbing :D YAY :D LoveYouPeople Muah!:> As i walk along the streets, i saw little kids, with parents, waving their lanterns... how i wish i was like them, soo cute, innocent, no pressure, just having fun.. :P sigh. I guess this is life then :/ Maatths mock test was quite alright, but i made one careless mistake and some other mistakes i think :P HAHAS nvm. psle i will not make the same mistake ;D

YOU KNOW WHAT! I JUST SUCK! I CANT DO THE MOCK TEST!~~~ ITS EEKY! WTH:( I hate my life... i give up, i dun want to do psle anymore :'( can i? no. reality sucks, and its like only 2++ weeks to psle omfg. Jys~ I am not sure if i can do it, i am waiting for ZQ and HY to snatch the first place from me... sigh, yeahh, thats how dejected i am. teehee

sunday... time passes sooo quickly! Going over to my paternal grandma house later to eat steamboat.. guess i will just eat a little :P:P HEHE!~~ I feel like giving up at this critical moment :( BUT I CANT :[ sigh, nvm. i guess i am born to do all this ... i cant wait for psle to be over in 2++ weeks!~~ i can do all the things i like :P:P

LC today and its easy soo yeah :D um um going out later with ada in this eeky day :P:P rain rain go away!!~~ HEHE! indeed, i tried... in my heart, i feel that its worth it! at least i didnt disappoint myself :\

ughh... why am i crying? i told myself not to cry... although i got first in class and lvl but i am not feeling the happiness.. whats wrong with me? i hate myself.. i do not have the courage, in my heart i thought i am at least gonna say hi, but in the end, nothing came out :[ coward me. i still do feel it.. and yes until now i cant forget...whenever i recall those happeh days, i will always cry! bUT WHATS THE POINT OF CRYING?! i want her back, but a one sided traffic does not help, i dunno what she thinks... but i know what i think. i still love you. i want you back.

hmmm.. its exactly 4 weeks from that day.. thinking back, makes me regret it a lot... but i guess i have to get over it and continue life d: Went to udders at west mall today(: Yummy icecream! HEHE! And i can't wait for psle to be over soo that i can buy clothes!!!~~~ AHHHH! Everytime i go out, all the clothes i see are tempting me! HAHAHAS:D:D

Well, i should have neeveer gone to that site, it just made me more sad, angry and _______! Whats the point? ;( sigh

Hmmm...Rainy day :P:P Cold~~~ Was in the bus coming back from tuition and i was shivering!! hahas... tuition was funny as usual :D:D Jokes :P:P And the post on fb was soo unneh too! And lao ba told me sth funny too:) Sth abt breakfast:D:D HEHE! I know i am talking very confusingly AHAAHHA! Its okay;D tmr is gonna be the Maths/Science/English trail... I was soo lucky, miss siti didnt pair me up with jason PHEW:P HEHE! Happeh day :) Thumbs up! YAY!

Hmm... just came back from amk hub :D:D and guess what i saw ada there! :D:D YAY! and you know what, i decided that after psle i am gonna buy loads of stuff at amk there... there is soo much awesome stuff there :P HEHE! Well, thats after psle and those will be my CNY clothes :) Happeh day! CHEERS

Today was soo fun :D:D During P.E. we played frisbee and i realised i cannot play frisbee :P:P (actually i realised that a long time ago liao) Then during music lessons, we practised our dance and i went jdfnhjdsfnsjafb HEHE!~~~ After school, i played ball with DJ they all! YAY! Its soo fun :D:D Mr Koh joined in too, and he hit my thigh with the ball... Ouch :P he threw so damn hard! but looking at him, its evident that he is very fit hahas

I dunno why... its suddenly back again... i saw the yellow squishy keychain and i suddenly thought of her, as she is the one who gave it to me.. although its dirty and its almost breaking into pieces, but i still treasure it... I forgotten about it big time, and its until today then i saw it in my school bag... Looking at it brings me back loads of memory, and i went to take a look at my old pencil case and memories flood my mind once again... The nose, the pencil case itself... Haiz... Its history i guess

hmmm... today must be the most tiring day ever:P:P I feel so tired :(:( but happy! XDXD To all teachers in the world: Happy Teachers' Day! You guys are the most awesome people in the world! :D:D going out later, play basketball :P:P HEHEHE! Another fun day :D

Hmm... Nothing much going on today :) except for the no tuition thingy :P:P YAY! Tuition postponed to thursday :D Teacher sick :):)

Hmmm... finished the compo, did 10++ surveys on fb :P bleah.. playing minesweeper right now... just now the survey asked some questions which made me thought of her, bleah, nvm, thats over liao... no point looking back, unless she wants to talk about it, which i don't think so... Hmm... suddenly it feels like i am back to square one, as i had deleted all my social networking accounts :) hAhaS! But this feels more like me :) and soo i am not regretting my choice :D:D

Well, today passed quite smoothly, i actually wanted to delete my twitter account too, but i don't know how! EEEK! bleah :P Just finished decorating the teachers' day gifts :) Hope Ms Siti, Mrs Chay, 刘老师 and Mdm Ren will like the pressents :D:D Its been such a hot day and im sweating buckets d: Went to grandma house to eat beehoon in the afternoon, soo delicious!! ITS SOO YUMMY!~ How i wish i can learn to cook soo good like her :P:P Unfortunately, i only can cook instant noodles... And an egg? i think i should be able to fry an egg:P:P I think so :D:D HEHE! Who cares? i will learn all this later after psle :P:P

Why can't you stay by my side forever? Pls...

I Miss You :(

I feel weird... I dunno how to describe how i feel... I never felt like this before, Ugh!~

Today afternoon was fun... went out with ada, karina, jiajia and aisyah to causeway point :) Ada wants to buy teachers' day presents and i accompanied her :D:D Had a fun time with them :P love them ttm sia... But when i went to formspring, i saw some things which just made me angry... (its not about the hater) but sth else, and i deleted my account like that too... Youtube was deleted in a fit of anger tooo... BUT I do not regret my choice(:

Today is a tiring day, just came back from school helping mc for teachers' day... well, the gee was quite good, imsomnia was great and there was also never say never :D:D HAHHAAHS!~ hmmm... christie really has the dancing talent 多亏是chinese dance de member :D:D lol... legs are sooo tired and aching ... i think tuesday will be worse, but i think it will be quite fun, teachers' day :P:P I and ada have to run around doing a lot of work and i think i will just fall on my bed once i reach home :) And i am deleting youtube sooo happeh :D finally i came to this choice.. its been such a fun day with ada and meng xian :D we both kept laughing and teasing each other.. and ada is sooo tired i pity her soo much :P i wish i could help her... Haiz.. I am also happy with lots of different stuff, i finally do not feel pain anymore... TIME HEALS MY WOUND>.< Oh god, 7.14 i gtg bb... yog closing ceremony in 16 mins :P:P bb, and kudos to singapore :D:D

somebody just keeps posting those stuff on formspring.. cant outbeat me in the fight of brains then keep spouting bad words-.- whats wrong with them? and i dunno who is she... but i think i know her-.- But i cant just go around accusing people.... 敢做不敢当>.< thats sooo

Must you be soo cruel? Well, should i give up waiting? It does not hurt that much anymore though, but still i feel weird and i feel guilty, and i regret

Its the second day...and it still hurts:( Its worse... Sometimes when i closed my eyes, tears formed... Why am i being so emo? I hate myself! Suddenly, i realised i can't be myself, i need a mask :( bleah, its supposed to be a happy day... later at 1.30pm++ i am going to walk past her house and take the mrt to yishun to eat.. but now i don't think even food can make me feel better. i keep thinking what i had done, but i >.< UGH! What did i do? :( bleah It will not be a game over i promised... Even if it is i am going to find out why did i lose

Even though i didnt lose this time but :(:( PROBLEMS ARE HERE AGAIN:( I want to solve it, i tried to solve it, but the problem is i don't even know what the hell wrong is with me :(

Is history repeating itself? why must this always happens to me? When some things go right, others will go wrong :( BUT WHY? OH GOD :( WHY! i hate my life so much right now:( MY LIFE IS NOT AS AWESOME AS IT SEEMS and indeed its right. Indeed a saddening day :( Should i cry? No. UGH! Nothing is going to help me i think :( Unless... bleah :(

I feel sad :( and i immediately thought of this blog :) But still i am depressed>

I wont lose again!~ Watch out...　

I wont lose again!~ Watch out...　

因为你我拥有最好的时光/细细品尝爱情淡淡的清香/快乐悲伤我为了你而珍藏/藏在我心上/直到地久天长

所有的星光为我闪亮/我创造属于我的辉煌

最好的时光:)

一千年以后...what will happened by then?

I know you think that i am very emo... sigh... You will never comprehend...

Dont look at the appearance, my life isnt as a perfect as complete as u think...

Why must god be so mean to me? I really tried my best... But how hard i tried, i can still never be the best ... Suddenly all i want to be is a normal student, not someone who gets marvellous results.. But i guess its too late to wish for that...

Happy-ing... 恋爱ing :)

Oh Baby... I can see the game is over... But why? Can you come back? I guess the answer is no. Hmph... I officially loathe you )':

Looking at everything now, I realised that what I did all along was not worthwhile and I regreted my choice... "(

I am tired... I am tired of loving you... But i realised i can't stop... Why did you make me fall in love with you? :(

Your kiss... Its like a drug to me...

Tell me what is life about??? Going out with your crushes? Topping the class? Go "goo goo ga ga" over some handsome boys? I dun think it is any of this... Life is about living it to the fullest... I just want you to live life happily :) Do not have any regrets because life is short you would not know when will it end...

I am walking through a bright path with lots of obstacles... I am troubled by... Love... Friendship... Love: Why is there this b**** in between us? Friendship: Is she jealous of me? The Earth seems just soo simple (a round circle)... How can there be soo much problems?!






PS. This is not sth of my real life... This is a made up thingy :)

You are my friend... My bestfriend... But thats all history...

Life is not just about studying, reading, playing, etc... Its about Love

Looking at your fragile face, your wispy black hair, how haggard you looks... I can no longer control my tears as it automatically drips down my face...

I am sick and tired of living... Thats how my life sucks...

You are the one who encouraged me... Your smile, your luagh... I am just happy to see you...


To People who encouraged me...

This is a note to thank you guys.... (Esp anneh and KJL)

Night... Lying on our backs... Looking at the sky, the stars... Gripping your hand tightly... I hope it will never end... Soon, dawn came... Watching the sunrise with you, was one of the best things that could happened... :)

Quote of the day

Just open your mouth and tell me that 3 words... Hmph... You are just a coward. I am dissapointed with you... "(

You have brightened the path in my life... When I opened my eyes in the morning, I hope to see your face. During classes, I can't help but not pay attention and dream about you. After school, I will stand far away and try to spot you in the crowd. But when I see you with that girl holding hands, my heart sank right to my feet...