I never felt sooo sad in my whole damn life, now i realised something- i am not the best and never will be. If something changes a little, my whole damn life changes too. I cant take it anymore, yesterday something happened, today something happened again, why does this happens to me? Everytime when this kind of things happens, i try my best, to find confidence again, to continue moving, but this time, i feel tired, i feel that i should just give up and not study forever. I worked sooo hard till now, is because of the smile on my parents and relatives face. Whenever, i get good results, my parents will always smile radiantly, and of course my relatives too. But, whenever i didnt, i could see the disappointment in their eyes, i know how much they want their daughter to have a bright future. but i really want to say, maybe this is my life, i cant get anything right. This year i have been under a lot of pressure- peer pressure, my family and teacher's expectations. however, most likely i will fail to reach their goal for me. now the only thing that is keeping me going is my family- upon knowing about all this, my mum came back and told me its okay and the more she says that the more i felt guilty, but i really tried my best, i study soo hard for this day, but in the end, this is what i get? Tears fall uncontrollably, in my heart, it hurts, a lot. In front of my friends, i do not dare to cry, if not i will keep hearing its okay from them too. In the end, i guess i will not be able to top the school, i think when we get back to school to get our results, i think i will be the one, sitting down emotionless, cos its impossible for me to get 260 and above lerh, i think i will be the worse person ever, even MX may surpass me i think. Sigh, HY, ZQ, wrps is counting on you... break the school record guys, break a leg!~

失败的man :( spiderman, 失败 is da words to describe me... fml, i realised something, i was always breakdown when i am under pressure, i almost gave up psle in the afternoon, i was scared then- very, but now, the feeling disappeared and i am filled with this teeny bit of confidence again, wish me luck :( Buhbye

I cried dood, i cried, i am a major failure, eekkky, seriiouslyy i am sooo damn sad right now. I put up a brave front, not wanting to cry in front of everybody, but at home, i closed the door, and just started crying non-stop... SHIT!~ I dunno if i did write elderly woman in the first para, i am scared. REALLY SCARED :( on the other hand, i was thinking, why not dont go to a good school, just go a neighbourhood school and thats it fml :( nothing can express how sad i felt now, i really need something, something.

PSLE is tmr!~ OMG :( Thats sooo fast, i am scared. what if, what if, i did not get good results? HOW? :( Sigh, nvm. i will give my best shot :D But, still:P JYS :D:D

Excitiiing day ahead!~ going our for lunch to have a break from studying, then gonna watch 命中注定我爱你at 5pm bwahhahhaha :D:D I love that friggin show... AND THEN AT NIGHT gonna go and eat dinner with my da ku ma(: YAYY!~ long time no see her lerh bleah :P

been typing like mad since i on9 :P:P talked to zee about that matter already and i feel better to share it with someone(: and also i chatted with xin lin :D:D Had fun talking to them ^^ edited a picture for them too. but editor when bonkers and soooo i cant add texts :( hmph, tired. its been such a day:) feel like staying up to watch drama serials though bwhahahhaa bye~

BlAH~~ Just came back from bbc, playing basketball with dj, marcus, chris, ada, and ada's bro(: Was afraid that i would hit chris with the ball again and his nose will bleed again :P BLEAH!~ Had fun with them nomnom(: Finished more test papers, going to grandma's house soon for dinner:D goodbye.