tmr is my last exam, please god please, please help me :( I really need all the luck right now, wish me all the best flehh. suck. my. life. nvm. jys girl. :D:D

I am scared, tmr, day of death, how awesome. I can imagine how all this is gonna be when i get my results. i have already imagined the worse:)

My father called me just now, he asked if today's paper is easier... i told him yes, and he said he calculated for me already, he said if i worked harder for my science and hmt, 270 would be nothing, he said it as if its very easy... i am afraid that i would disappoint him, he said if i had any questions, i could ask him. I am scared :( Very. Although today's paper is easy, i already had like one 1 question wrong? Fick? After my efforts of maintaining full marks for booklet A? WTH :( in my heart, there is still disappointment...

My mum called and told me its okay again, and my tears fall back down again, i really felt guilty. my keyboard is filled with tears. Mummy i love you :(

I never felt sooo sad in my whole damn life, now i realised something- i am not the best and never will be. If something changes a little, my whole damn life changes too. I cant take it anymore, yesterday something happened, today something happened again, why does this happens to me? Everytime when this kind of things happens, i try my best, to find confidence again, to continue moving, but this time, i feel tired, i feel that i should just give up and not study forever. I worked sooo hard till now, is because of the smile on my parents and relatives face. Whenever, i get good results, my parents will always smile radiantly, and of course my relatives too. But, whenever i didnt, i could see the disappointment in their eyes, i know how much they want their daughter to have a bright future. but i really want to say, maybe this is my life, i cant get anything right. This year i have been under a lot of pressure- peer pressure, my family and teacher's expectations. however, most likely i will fail to reach their goal for me. now the only thing that is keeping me going is my family- upon knowing about all this, my mum came back and told me its okay and the more she says that the more i felt guilty, but i really tried my best, i study soo hard for this day, but in the end, this is what i get? Tears fall uncontrollably, in my heart, it hurts, a lot. In front of my friends, i do not dare to cry, if not i will keep hearing its okay from them too. In the end, i guess i will not be able to top the school, i think when we get back to school to get our results, i think i will be the one, sitting down emotionless, cos its impossible for me to get 260 and above lerh, i think i will be the worse person ever, even MX may surpass me i think. Sigh, HY, ZQ, wrps is counting on you... break the school record guys, break a leg!~

失败的man :( spiderman, 失败 is da words to describe me... fml, i realised something, i was always breakdown when i am under pressure, i almost gave up psle in the afternoon, i was scared then- very, but now, the feeling disappeared and i am filled with this teeny bit of confidence again, wish me luck :( Buhbye

I cried dood, i cried, i am a major failure, eekkky, seriiouslyy i am sooo damn sad right now. I put up a brave front, not wanting to cry in front of everybody, but at home, i closed the door, and just started crying non-stop... SHIT!~ I dunno if i did write elderly woman in the first para, i am scared. REALLY SCARED :( on the other hand, i was thinking, why not dont go to a good school, just go a neighbourhood school and thats it fml :( nothing can express how sad i felt now, i really need something, something.