I feel sad for ada, i pity her. LOADS

its been ages since i write my blog :P hehehe, i think from mon-fri its gonna be basketball nonstop:) hahahs.

i feel weird all of a sudden, i watched the video, looked at the pictures, and i wonder why. by now, i should have asked her, but nothing, i didnt ask a single thing. wth. ugh. my piece of puzzle.. gone.

yamakasi :) heh heh, that was soo damn friggin cool. i love that show :D:D what an awesome day~!

today, i went to the dentist. gonna put the braces on my 3rd visit. flehh, i hope the braces work:( if not gonna do surgery when i am 18!~ eeekkk :( PLSSS *PRAYS*

hmm, i am thinking... is my happiness really back? or is something still missing? hahas :B bleah...

hmm, was talking to ZX until he suddenly stop, i think i said something wrong :( did i? um, actually he is quite a nice guy, very friendly. xP but not my type(:

Yesterday Sarah talked to me, she said loads of stuff, which is just her opinions (ithink) THIS SUCKS... why must she tell me all this now? It makes me confuse, i do not know what to do right now..Ugh, my life is in a mess. :( Truthfully, despite what i have, who i hang out with right now, there is always this piece of puzzle missing. Just because of that one piece, the puzzle is not completed. And i had lost that piece of puzzle...

Going to meng's house later to watch our favourite show :D YAY!~ WHEEEE

Havent been updating my blog for ages i realised... Hehehe~! Yesterday, Ada and I went to the beach:D OhMyGosh, it was soo fun, bwahhahaha. Thanks to SL, i was drenched from head to toe. AND i mean head to toe. The water is salty, gawd. thats random(: well, we also detour to causeway point to buy a necklace and then we went to northpoint too, and bought more necklaces:D Well, im almost bankrupt, but its okay. hehehe:) SUCH AN AWESOME DAY! I LOVE ADA Muah~~

WAS SUCH A FUN DAY TODAY:D EPIC OF THE EPICS:D HEHE! 2 words: Ahhhwesome DaY(:

Going to meng's house for her birthday party today(: AND THEN at night i would go to huiting's house for her birthday party too:D Aw ! SO MUCH FUN :D:D HEHE~ going soon in 7 min:) AHAHAH BLEHH, suddenly i am obsessed with ordinary girl:) its nice, love that song, its like 一见钟情sia LOL~ my chinese suck :P HEHHE... updating details later, buhbye

AWESOME :) Basketball is soooo damn friggin fun :P:P I LOVE YOU PEEPS :D right now is sg guys vs india guys... and my heart is worried for them, they looked like they may lose or something HAHA~

OMFG :D:D YAY!~ After like 6 years of hard work, finally the major friggin exam is over muahhaha... i am soo damn happy, going out with friends to party and have fun, and yeahh, there is something i still need to make clear, flehh. nom(: anyways, fun is the only word now :D

tmr is my last exam, please god please, please help me :( I really need all the luck right now, wish me all the best flehh. suck. my. life. nvm. jys girl. :D:D

I am scared, tmr, day of death, how awesome. I can imagine how all this is gonna be when i get my results. i have already imagined the worse:)

My father called me just now, he asked if today's paper is easier... i told him yes, and he said he calculated for me already, he said if i worked harder for my science and hmt, 270 would be nothing, he said it as if its very easy... i am afraid that i would disappoint him, he said if i had any questions, i could ask him. I am scared :( Very. Although today's paper is easy, i already had like one 1 question wrong? Fick? After my efforts of maintaining full marks for booklet A? WTH :( in my heart, there is still disappointment...

My mum called and told me its okay again, and my tears fall back down again, i really felt guilty. my keyboard is filled with tears. Mummy i love you :(

I never felt sooo sad in my whole damn life, now i realised something- i am not the best and never will be. If something changes a little, my whole damn life changes too. I cant take it anymore, yesterday something happened, today something happened again, why does this happens to me? Everytime when this kind of things happens, i try my best, to find confidence again, to continue moving, but this time, i feel tired, i feel that i should just give up and not study forever. I worked sooo hard till now, is because of the smile on my parents and relatives face. Whenever, i get good results, my parents will always smile radiantly, and of course my relatives too. But, whenever i didnt, i could see the disappointment in their eyes, i know how much they want their daughter to have a bright future. but i really want to say, maybe this is my life, i cant get anything right. This year i have been under a lot of pressure- peer pressure, my family and teacher's expectations. however, most likely i will fail to reach their goal for me. now the only thing that is keeping me going is my family- upon knowing about all this, my mum came back and told me its okay and the more she says that the more i felt guilty, but i really tried my best, i study soo hard for this day, but in the end, this is what i get? Tears fall uncontrollably, in my heart, it hurts, a lot. In front of my friends, i do not dare to cry, if not i will keep hearing its okay from them too. In the end, i guess i will not be able to top the school, i think when we get back to school to get our results, i think i will be the one, sitting down emotionless, cos its impossible for me to get 260 and above lerh, i think i will be the worse person ever, even MX may surpass me i think. Sigh, HY, ZQ, wrps is counting on you... break the school record guys, break a leg!~

失败的man :( spiderman, 失败 is da words to describe me... fml, i realised something, i was always breakdown when i am under pressure, i almost gave up psle in the afternoon, i was scared then- very, but now, the feeling disappeared and i am filled with this teeny bit of confidence again, wish me luck :( Buhbye

I cried dood, i cried, i am a major failure, eekkky, seriiouslyy i am sooo damn sad right now. I put up a brave front, not wanting to cry in front of everybody, but at home, i closed the door, and just started crying non-stop... SHIT!~ I dunno if i did write elderly woman in the first para, i am scared. REALLY SCARED :( on the other hand, i was thinking, why not dont go to a good school, just go a neighbourhood school and thats it fml :( nothing can express how sad i felt now, i really need something, something.

PSLE is tmr!~ OMG :( Thats sooo fast, i am scared. what if, what if, i did not get good results? HOW? :( Sigh, nvm. i will give my best shot :D But, still:P JYS :D:D

Excitiiing day ahead!~ going our for lunch to have a break from studying, then gonna watch 命中注定我爱你at 5pm bwahhahhaha :D:D I love that friggin show... AND THEN AT NIGHT gonna go and eat dinner with my da ku ma(: YAYY!~ long time no see her lerh bleah :P

been typing like mad since i on9 :P:P talked to zee about that matter already and i feel better to share it with someone(: and also i chatted with xin lin :D:D Had fun talking to them ^^ edited a picture for them too. but editor when bonkers and soooo i cant add texts :( hmph, tired. its been such a day:) feel like staying up to watch drama serials though bwhahahhaa bye~

BlAH~~ Just came back from bbc, playing basketball with dj, marcus, chris, ada, and ada's bro(: Was afraid that i would hit chris with the ball again and his nose will bleed again :P BLEAH!~ Had fun with them nomnom(: Finished more test papers, going to grandma's house soon for dinner:D goodbye.